Deliverance after 30 years of panic attacks

It is at least 30 years ago that before I went to sleep I would have extreme anxiety and then panicked. I had this idea that when someone is dead they do not know what is going on in this world, cannot hear or see anything, are unable to speak – you’re just in a deep dark hole. I mostly eventually cried myself to sleep. When I was having confirmation classes we could write anonymous letters to the vicar and he answered them. I asked about this in one of my letters. The vicar answered all the questions but this problem was ignored.
Eventually I confided to my dear mother about this anguish of mine (I’d had this trauma since day X). She tried to comfort me but couldn’t help me.
Later when I was married I told my husband about it. Unfortunately he had no connection to God (NOT YET) and was unable to help me.
Years went by.
On 5 November 2016 I once more gave my life to Jesus in the Meistersingerhalle in Nuremberg.
About 2 weeks later I realized that I no longer had panic attacks before going to sleep. I don’t need TV or anything else to make me sleepy. I thank God every day. Hallelujah, thank you Daddy.  B.K.